Thursday, October 15, 2009

Not my perky self today...

I was just talking with a co-worker who commented: "Is something wrong? You're not your perky self today."

I have to say, I've never thought of myself as perky. In my minds-eye, perky is Reese Witherspoon in Legally Blonde. You know, all cute, full of energy, bouncing all over the place, and just a bit ditzy - and a little bit annoying. That doesn't fit my image of myself at all. I do tend to be fairly positive - because being a pessimist is just depressing. But please, not perky.

That being said, I am not really my usual self today. I'm still fighting a rotten cold and I'm sick to death of coughing and sneezing. I just found out that a friend of mine from high school died yesterday after a long, arduous battle with cancer. I have a major deadline at work tomorrow and I'm frantically trying to get everything done for that. I have a headache that just won't go away. And I feel old. I know 35 really isn't old, but it's feeling old to me. I think it's because I've still kind of been thinking about talking to Aaron about another baby. I don't know how he would feel about it. I don't even know for sure how I feel about it. But now I've hit 35 and that's advanced maternal age. And that makes me feel old.

BUT, to look on the positive side of things (since I just said I prefer to be positive)... hopefully the cold medicine will kick in soon. Marshel is in a better place now and not in pain anymore. I have a lot of work to do to hit my deadline, but I should be able to get it all done - and it's a book I can be really proud of. I finished off most of my Christmas shopping last night. Done nice and early AND I didn't go overboard on the spending. And give me a few days to get over my cold and my deadline stress and get a little more sleep and I probably won't feel quite so old anymore.


Tera said...

It sounds like you have the right to feel "not like yourself" today, you certainly have a lot on your plate right now.

I had no idea you were thinking about another baby! I thought you had decided you were finished. I think it is a great idea, and you know the perfect time to ask......It will work everytime! Just a tip! Good luck and I hope you feel better soon!

Melissa said...

So sorry about the loss of your friend. Hope you feel better soon. And AMEN to everything you said about 35 - all of it (although I too thought you were totally done...?) I totally echo your feelings. Good luck with everything!

Druciana said...

I think I would describe you as perky most days. I mean take away the annoying part of your discription, and that is you...perky, but not ditzy. (It's a compliment for sure.)
Sorry to hear about your friend. It is hard to loose someone no matter what the reasons. are not old. If people can have babies in their 40's and even 50's, you can absoultely have a baby at 35.
(I hope that cheers you up!)